Fear of rejection

Rejection::

What is rejection—-

According to Merriam—

: to refuse to accept, consider, submit to, take for some purpose, or use

rejected the suggestion

reject a manuscript

b

: to refuse to hear, receive, or admit : REBUFF, REPEL

parents who reject their children

c

: to refuse as lover or spouse

I struggled with the fear of being rejected for a long time. In hindsight, I wasn’t being myself because I felt being myself, would ultimately make others not like me for me. So, I turned me down. And when I would do that, I suffered inwardly. And ultimately I would find myself praying for an escape.

I just wanted to fit the narrative that was already set for me but it was so HARD!

Fast forward—-I started finding myself and hit more walls than open doors. I had finally connected with someone that let me be me. But, the moment disarray happened “me” was being pushed back in the box, because “me” did not fit the narrative of what they thought I should be. And I lost me again , because I didn’t want to be refused or pushed away! This is what you call CONFORMING!!

We lose identity, we lose purpose, and we lose time, when we are worried about if others will like you or not! Trust me I lost all of that…but this taste of disgust happened…and I’m like if me being me makes you get away from me, then so be it! If me being me keeps you, then let’s rock with it.

Dimming my light so yours can shine, will reveal limitations for all parities. In hindsight, if you have to dismiss someone else’s light to let yours shine, then the light you are casting is only going to blind the purpose that is yours to find. You will never see or get to your purpose that way!

Rejection is apart of life, we can’t be afraid of it, and we don’t necessarily have to embrace it, but you have to be ready when it happens. I now realize I am not everyone’s cup of tea, coffee, wine, or water and I’m perfectly ok with that.

Imma be me, and that’s on Mary had a little lamb, ok!